Quote # 631

When we think about all the pain they caused, just remember your only hurting yourself. They don’t even care.



This strong person.

This strong person can be the ideal hero. Fighting the bad, working hard, protecting loved ones or even leaving the negativity behind (I believe that a strong person can do this). In life this person can keep moving on without falling down but eventually even this strong person will fall. Why? This person can not let nothing get to him/her. The reason is, eventually all the hardships we endure and fighting the evil or ignoring the gossips about us will get to us. The reason is that at times we must fall because the weight is too heavy. We need time to be fresh and understand what happened and why it happened that way. We must face it and accept it because wounds have been open for a long time. Just because we ignore things that don’t matter but deep down inside it effects us by atleast 1%. We are human and we all have feelings and it’s ok to step back and not be a hero for a while but be a hero for ourselves. 

Take your time to recover.


Just a simple life..is it possible?

There are days when I think about when someone does work with intentions that he may receive something back is it worth it? Say, you work so hard to help someone and keep helping them but all you get curses and heartaches? Why? Cause it’s family and they can get away with it? All you ever wanted was a simple life but all they do is manipulate you and make you feel down..why? because they brought you into this world and you deserve to be treated the way they treat you? Work for them, pay their bills and mortgage starting at the age of 16. No, your not allowed to go to college because they need their bills taken care of. But then you leave them and they still tell your relatives that your such a horrible person because you went against them to gain your self confidence and self esteem which was knocked down by them so many times. Your run away to live a simple life but running away from them is it even possible? 

Just thoughts…

It’s hard not to care when you did. The feeling of betrayal is when someone takes your purity and steps on it when all you did was be faithful. The worst feeling is when you didn’t do nothing wrong but they make you think you did just so they can protect themselves. I wonder if I will ever get the answer that I longed for..but the question is..God why did you make my family so toxic?